Dream

Her raven waves were loose in the night air. She was entranced by the calls for her. The crowd was just outside the gates of her prison. Guards sat waiting for her to try to run again. She had to find a way to get to them, her followers needed her. She scaled the stone wall finding little places to put her girls feet.

She jumps into the hands of two of her devotees. They rush her to the waiting carriage that leads her to the church in the middle of the city. She knew that this was the way to be love by the people, her people. One by one the crowd broke off pursuing her.

This was all see had ever wanted, love. The gilded carriage slowed. Two pale children helped her out to the stairs of the Gothic cathedral. Their translucent skin matched the white gowns they dawned. She stopped at the door and turned to the people that loved her so.

She saw the tears on their faces not sure what her had don to more them. The children grabbed a hand each never saying a word or looking away from her. As she turned to walked into the holy build she saw the horse that had brought her. There was something wrong. Panic welled in her chest. Her tried to turn back but the children were to strong. They pulled her into the church smiling.

She turned to the see those red eyed horse move on into the night. She screamed for help but the towns people did nothing. She begged and bargained to anyone and everyone. She looking down at the children and finally saw their demon eyes. The glowing rubies had nothing but hate behind them.

As they pulled her up the last steps she heard singing from the empty building. Was this singing from heaven or hell? She would soon find out.

Vampire

He was pale and dark at the same time but I wanted his cream lips on mine. I didn't care if I lived or died tonight just as long as I got to feel that sweet kiss at least once. The best for last right?

Vampires.... Yes, today they are so POPULAR but more than seven years ago when I started writing about them in middle school they were cliche and Halloween costumes. Now one can't go to a store without seeing a vampire something or flip threw the channels with out hearing news of "Twilight" or "True blood." Vampires are back and they are big.

It is so discouraging that they are back. I write stories about 95% vampires and creatures of the night and now I am cliche for doing so. True, I love to find books with vampires in them but it is so hard to do something that doesn't get labeled as "done." What is a blood sucker lover suppose to do? Wait?

All I want to do now is to write! To let others see the vivid images that run threw my mind and dreams. I will find a way! And by god I will get published in some way! you watch!

Thanksgiving

It is suppose to be a time for family right? Well most of my family is 450 miles away and even if I was with them I am the queen of anti-social. I can't even talk to my family. I never know how to start a conversation with people unless it is stupid things or sex. Those conversations always are fun at the time right.

There is always the fact that I can't remember anything personally unless it is drilled into my sad little brain.

I have little to talk about.

I want so badly to be thin, happy, a mother, popular and have friends and I always wonder why when I truly know. I am not thin because I am lazy. Not happy because I never reach my goals, mother well that is nature, popular because I am anti-social, have friends well the former applies.