It has been a very different week in our house. First not one but both cats have been in heat. One stopped and the second started. My boyfriend has been on music overload. Having two days with his band mate this week as apposed to 1 every two weeks. My brother came to stay at my house for two days and I bare saw him.Lastly I have been very lacks on the diet.
Our smallest cat started going into heat, again. All we heard for days was the cries of a little cat.As she finally stopped her sister started acting weird. This was not my black cat's first time in heat and the first time she was so cool and calm about it. She hid in my room or the laundry room without a peep only to be seen at dinner and breakfast but this time she took her sister's que and has been moaning about the house as if being beat.
My boyfriend formed a band a few months ago with his new best friend and they have been "jamming" here or there but they are starting to get crazy serious and have been doing everything band all day everyday. He has decided I am the manger and with this I need to learn to use my assents to help them but "doesn't want me to turn into a manipulative person." He worries this will happen. We will see is all I can really say.
My brother and his friends had had a party over here. Just teenagers taking over my kitchen and TV for two days. I understand now how my mother feels. I realized I spent little time with my brother and he leaves so soon. I feel like thing is going to feel to me like when someone dies, he is not dead to me egad, just that my mind will put him some place he normally is and he is to busy to be with us. For example my mind still just places my grandfather in his spot in his house watching TV it is only when I go to his house and see him not there it all hits me. I am don't know if I can handle it. Only time will tell I guess.
Since my brother and his friends were here they left plenty of BAD food around. I ate nothing but processed foods for two days and felt so crappy. I even started getting sick. Weird I get sick only when I eat processed foods. I stopped and feel great now. I did not really care if this hurt my diet, I actually hoped it would shock my system, which I think it did, that and the crazy fun night I had dancing the other night. I have not weighted myself yet but clothes are looser.
All in all it has been a great and different week. Back to diet and points (which I failed at so bad this week, hour workout on the way). Going to spend more time with my brother and see what the next week will bring. Hopefully more weight loss and clothes falling off! :)
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6.2.11
26.1.11
Three days off?
This is my second day off of three and our down day. Yesterday we went out and just enjoyed the day and tomorrow we plan on going out with the friends and I plan on doing a spa day, but today we have nothing. It is a beautiful day out and what am I doing? Watching Dexter. My whole family is into it I might as well watch the pilot right?
As I watch netflix on my laptop I see the reflection of myself and feel proud. I am wearing a shirt that stopped fitting a year and a half ago and my stomach is not huge. I am just so happy. I feel the need to go out and run it is just the getting up. HHMM... I guess after dexter I am going out for that long awaited jog. I fear if I go jogging I may not stop. This weight loss makes me feel so powerful. I know this is the first step in a bad direction so I am trying to control it. Slowing down is not an option for me I want this so bad and I have never been so proud and felt more like myself. I need to hit this goal. I have only lost one pant size need 3 more to go.
Well off to enjoy the rest of Dexter and then a jog. Is anyone reading this? haha I doubt it but I feel better writing it
As I watch netflix on my laptop I see the reflection of myself and feel proud. I am wearing a shirt that stopped fitting a year and a half ago and my stomach is not huge. I am just so happy. I feel the need to go out and run it is just the getting up. HHMM... I guess after dexter I am going out for that long awaited jog. I fear if I go jogging I may not stop. This weight loss makes me feel so powerful. I know this is the first step in a bad direction so I am trying to control it. Slowing down is not an option for me I want this so bad and I have never been so proud and felt more like myself. I need to hit this goal. I have only lost one pant size need 3 more to go.
Well off to enjoy the rest of Dexter and then a jog. Is anyone reading this? haha I doubt it but I feel better writing it
22.1.11
Just keep swimming....
It is all going well, thank goodness. I have lost 6 pounds or so in a week. Before I get the crazy comments I know it is not healthy and this was not my goal. I just want to get down in size.
Next my points system is still in place and I feel it is the driving focus to me still going. I guess making it a game was my best idea yet. I have not over ate (though I have had some processed foods), work out daily and drink my water YAY.
I feel better since I cut back on the processed food and excess calories. I have energy and am pretty mellow. Less anger is good. I have been having a bit of should pain but it seems to be getting better. I went out dancing the other night and out danced a friend much thinner then me and sang karaoke. I feel more out going, I think that has more to do with just trying to live life more and less time on the side lines.
As for the dancing there are pictures! I looked at them and thought wow I am still big but damn I can't imagine how big I was before (I refused to have pictures taken there is one tho a friend took for her baby shower I will have to find it.
Yep that is me the fat brunette. Like I said I do not look a lot better but you can tell I have lost weight. Here is the one from the other night.
I am the one is red.
So got somewhere but so far to go. Only 82 more pounds and 256 more days to go. So 1 pound every three days. If I just going the way I will lose it all in 2 months that would be a bit nuts. But I am going to stay the course I know it will all figure out.
Well off to do my squats, push-ups and crunches. I am at 3 points already hehe
Next my points system is still in place and I feel it is the driving focus to me still going. I guess making it a game was my best idea yet. I have not over ate (though I have had some processed foods), work out daily and drink my water YAY.
I feel better since I cut back on the processed food and excess calories. I have energy and am pretty mellow. Less anger is good. I have been having a bit of should pain but it seems to be getting better. I went out dancing the other night and out danced a friend much thinner then me and sang karaoke. I feel more out going, I think that has more to do with just trying to live life more and less time on the side lines.
As for the dancing there are pictures! I looked at them and thought wow I am still big but damn I can't imagine how big I was before (I refused to have pictures taken there is one tho a friend took for her baby shower I will have to find it.
Yep that is me the fat brunette. Like I said I do not look a lot better but you can tell I have lost weight. Here is the one from the other night.I am the one is red.
So got somewhere but so far to go. Only 82 more pounds and 256 more days to go. So 1 pound every three days. If I just going the way I will lose it all in 2 months that would be a bit nuts. But I am going to stay the course I know it will all figure out.
Well off to do my squats, push-ups and crunches. I am at 3 points already hehe
10.1.11
FAIL!
Ok so I was doing well. I lost about 5 lbs. then I stopped dieting and stopped working out. It is totally obvious that I was going to gain it back.
New things that I found out. First is that I may have PCOS. It pretty much means I am fat and other fun stuff. I have to go about weight loss in a very different ways, but I know that if I do crazy cardio for hours I loss weight fast. It is more about getting off my butt. Which I can do. I really wish someone was with me.
Doing this alone... My boyfriend has decided that he needs to go to the gym but is afraid do to his MS. He refuses to diet as well. So he is in need of a diet and exercise. I feel bad but I have straight out said PLEASE go to the gym and diet. He has agreed in a way. He forgets and I have to remind him often and I feel horrible, he is good at the "Oh yeah shit." I am such a push over. I need to grow a pair.He then eats to much of the heathly food and does not ever get out of his chair.
Today I have decided I am going to do this all for me just me if someone wants to join go for it but I am like all that are on diets alone and have to find my inner strength and have ten months to lose that 90 lbs. So about 10 lbs a month starting today! OKAY this will happen and I will grow? RIGHT? We will see. I have changed a lot of the pass year so this can happen.
I do have to say I stopped eating a lot of processed foods and found that when I started eating them again they all have weird after tastes. It only lasts a few days, pretty much however long you stopped but you sort of taste the wrongness of it all. I highly suggest trying it and I believe it may help you as well. It does take about 5 days then go back to your normal processed crap you will see. Enough bitching and the same I fail. Next time I write I know I will be proud and happy!
WORKOUT of the MOMENT: (I thought I would add something that I am loving that is helping me work out, I have still been doing this at house at the least.) I found a BBC show called OVER THE RAINBOW in which Andrew Llyod Webber was trying to find the Dorothy for his new Wizard of Oz musical and the videos of each singing and dance number are on youtube. I love to dance so I watch the up beat videos and dance to them. Here is the hard part after learning the dance singing with it on key. (if you are not a singing it is ok just try to keep up I promise you will be working for it unless you are in amazing shape). I respect those girls now seeing they did at least three numbers a show. I am just getting to the singing in the first MASH-UP. So if you love to dance and can learn without someone telling you the moves go for it here is the video I am on and you can do it at home. GOOD LUCK!
New things that I found out. First is that I may have PCOS. It pretty much means I am fat and other fun stuff. I have to go about weight loss in a very different ways, but I know that if I do crazy cardio for hours I loss weight fast. It is more about getting off my butt. Which I can do. I really wish someone was with me.
Doing this alone... My boyfriend has decided that he needs to go to the gym but is afraid do to his MS. He refuses to diet as well. So he is in need of a diet and exercise. I feel bad but I have straight out said PLEASE go to the gym and diet. He has agreed in a way. He forgets and I have to remind him often and I feel horrible, he is good at the "Oh yeah shit." I am such a push over. I need to grow a pair.He then eats to much of the heathly food and does not ever get out of his chair.
Today I have decided I am going to do this all for me just me if someone wants to join go for it but I am like all that are on diets alone and have to find my inner strength and have ten months to lose that 90 lbs. So about 10 lbs a month starting today! OKAY this will happen and I will grow? RIGHT? We will see. I have changed a lot of the pass year so this can happen.
I do have to say I stopped eating a lot of processed foods and found that when I started eating them again they all have weird after tastes. It only lasts a few days, pretty much however long you stopped but you sort of taste the wrongness of it all. I highly suggest trying it and I believe it may help you as well. It does take about 5 days then go back to your normal processed crap you will see. Enough bitching and the same I fail. Next time I write I know I will be proud and happy!
WORKOUT of the MOMENT: (I thought I would add something that I am loving that is helping me work out, I have still been doing this at house at the least.) I found a BBC show called OVER THE RAINBOW in which Andrew Llyod Webber was trying to find the Dorothy for his new Wizard of Oz musical and the videos of each singing and dance number are on youtube. I love to dance so I watch the up beat videos and dance to them. Here is the hard part after learning the dance singing with it on key. (if you are not a singing it is ok just try to keep up I promise you will be working for it unless you are in amazing shape). I respect those girls now seeing they did at least three numbers a show. I am just getting to the singing in the first MASH-UP. So if you love to dance and can learn without someone telling you the moves go for it here is the video I am on and you can do it at home. GOOD LUCK!
15.12.10
Weight loss restart
Ok so I have started to go back to the gym and forgot how great it and weight loss made me feel.
The first day I went for 30 minutes and was ready to pass out when I got home. But as time has gone by it has gotten easier. The last time I was there for an hour and I lived. I have the greatest intentions to go every day but I find it hard since the gym I go to has weird hours on the weekend and I am super lazy on my days off. Another down side is the BF only likes going for 30 minutes and I really want to best weight loss possible so I want to go for an hour. I will have to start walking or jogging.
When it comes to food I am still eating my pie, pasta and pizza but I have been eating much smaller sizes and less often. I went from 5 huge meals to 3 or 4 smaller ones. And I try to always have a veg or two with each meal. So maybe a few things have changed.
As for the work out most of it is Cardio and Abs. I do a little weight training but I build muscle quickly and I am trying to get more lean then built. I have lost about half a pant size so I must be doing something right. I have been watching a show (via youtube) "Over the rainbow" and it makes me want to join dance classes and start doing choir again. So I have a little goal that leads to my two big goals. The first big goal is look good for Halloween. I did a costume contest for work and I looked so fat and horrible and they posted the picture for the whole staff to see. I felt horrible.
The second and main goal for all of this is my cousins wedding in Jan 2012 I want to look great for this one and be proud.
I have also decided that a diet plan and heavy working out is not until Jan 2011 and what I am doing now is like a soft opening before the Grand opening so I don't get hurt.
But on Jan 2 2011 I will be going full throttle and hope to lose those 90 lbs in 9 months max. I unrealistically wish for 3 months so I don't have to stay SUPER motivated all year but I know it will be done by 9 months for sure.
The first day I went for 30 minutes and was ready to pass out when I got home. But as time has gone by it has gotten easier. The last time I was there for an hour and I lived. I have the greatest intentions to go every day but I find it hard since the gym I go to has weird hours on the weekend and I am super lazy on my days off. Another down side is the BF only likes going for 30 minutes and I really want to best weight loss possible so I want to go for an hour. I will have to start walking or jogging.
When it comes to food I am still eating my pie, pasta and pizza but I have been eating much smaller sizes and less often. I went from 5 huge meals to 3 or 4 smaller ones. And I try to always have a veg or two with each meal. So maybe a few things have changed.
As for the work out most of it is Cardio and Abs. I do a little weight training but I build muscle quickly and I am trying to get more lean then built. I have lost about half a pant size so I must be doing something right. I have been watching a show (via youtube) "Over the rainbow" and it makes me want to join dance classes and start doing choir again. So I have a little goal that leads to my two big goals. The first big goal is look good for Halloween. I did a costume contest for work and I looked so fat and horrible and they posted the picture for the whole staff to see. I felt horrible.
The second and main goal for all of this is my cousins wedding in Jan 2012 I want to look great for this one and be proud.
I have also decided that a diet plan and heavy working out is not until Jan 2011 and what I am doing now is like a soft opening before the Grand opening so I don't get hurt.
But on Jan 2 2011 I will be going full throttle and hope to lose those 90 lbs in 9 months max. I unrealistically wish for 3 months so I don't have to stay SUPER motivated all year but I know it will be done by 9 months for sure.
13.10.10
Unrealized dreams
Many of us have dreams that we have not realized. Most of the time they are small things that we can let fall by the way side without a worry or care. I have three that I can not let go.
The first being silly. I had always wanted to be a cheerleader. I know that ship is long passed but that was one thing I wish I would have worked harder on. Well boo.
The next two I can still achieve the first is a career that I can survive on if I am ever alone. A career that I can move back to california with and not worry of money and can get my own place. Where I am now the little I make is enough to get by but not in frankly any where else in the country.
The last is super obvious to be thin, ok not tiny but to not have to worry that I cam not going to fit in my clothes and to never have that day of crying because I can't get may favorite pants buttoned or my chest is to big for a shirt. I need to do this. I would this is a little redundent but it is just something that I have dreams of since high school. I just never find the drive or support that I need I hope this time it is better. I have decided I do not need others. I will do this on my own and will not let others pull me down!
I will succeed!
The first being silly. I had always wanted to be a cheerleader. I know that ship is long passed but that was one thing I wish I would have worked harder on. Well boo.
The next two I can still achieve the first is a career that I can survive on if I am ever alone. A career that I can move back to california with and not worry of money and can get my own place. Where I am now the little I make is enough to get by but not in frankly any where else in the country.
The last is super obvious to be thin, ok not tiny but to not have to worry that I cam not going to fit in my clothes and to never have that day of crying because I can't get may favorite pants buttoned or my chest is to big for a shirt. I need to do this. I would this is a little redundent but it is just something that I have dreams of since high school. I just never find the drive or support that I need I hope this time it is better. I have decided I do not need others. I will do this on my own and will not let others pull me down!
I will succeed!
12.10.10
The wedding! No not mine
My cousin is engaged yay! I am so happy for her but the second thing that went threw my head after yay is oh crap I am going to look like a whale in those wedding pictures. I looked like one at my other cousin's quince. I know I can't handle it again.
First I went into insta weight loss mode. Thinking of how I need to loose weight fast and needed to go on a crazy diet. Now I know that is stupid and I have more than a year to get my long lost flat stomach and size 6 frame.
I have already started to on the right track using tweet what you eat to ensure I am honest with myself. I realize that I need to eat better food and that I don't eat a lot, yet still I am over weight.
That brings me to my second step I need to get on working out. I tried Insanity and found that the cardio I can do the running my calves will not.
This is going to be a trial by fire. I plan on 6 months to lose 60 lbs. My next work out plan is hip hop abs. (I have done P90X a while ago but I do not have the equipment for that right now) I like Shawn T and hop this will be a good beginning to help my calves so I can go back to Insanity!
As for diet I am going the lowered carbs.. Now so much Atkins just cutting out sweets and white flours and starches.
This is it. I am doing it! Why not come along for the ride?
First I went into insta weight loss mode. Thinking of how I need to loose weight fast and needed to go on a crazy diet. Now I know that is stupid and I have more than a year to get my long lost flat stomach and size 6 frame.
I have already started to on the right track using tweet what you eat to ensure I am honest with myself. I realize that I need to eat better food and that I don't eat a lot, yet still I am over weight.
That brings me to my second step I need to get on working out. I tried Insanity and found that the cardio I can do the running my calves will not.
This is going to be a trial by fire. I plan on 6 months to lose 60 lbs. My next work out plan is hip hop abs. (I have done P90X a while ago but I do not have the equipment for that right now) I like Shawn T and hop this will be a good beginning to help my calves so I can go back to Insanity!
As for diet I am going the lowered carbs.. Now so much Atkins just cutting out sweets and white flours and starches.
This is it. I am doing it! Why not come along for the ride?
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